PUBLIC NOTICE

I AM responsible for my own reality, not yours.

Henceforth, please do not write me telling me to shut up in a polite or otherwise friendly-sounding way.

If you don't want to hear my story, at least own it to yourself; your reluctance to see me as another yourself.

The story I wrote below on HELL and TORTURE was roundly rejected by women members

of a political group as being inappropriate.

Earlier in the week I was admonished for not being friendly enough and sounding

like a propoganda minister of some unnamed religious party.

On the one hand I am too personal; on the other I am not.

That latter, I think was meant for the best.

The first definitely was not.

I am la espiritual journalista,

descended from a distinguished line of like-minded souls.

My feelings get tromped and hurt, like everyone else still stuck in the polarity of duality.

SOO PREEZ!

So in my search for (w)holiness I discovered a little message about

passing on my experience and dreams.

Somewhere in my dusty belongings is a poem

I wrote before my "deportation" expressing these same soul murmurings

as this Jean Shinoda Bolen, M.D. poem.

I prefix this poem with my sad farewell to yet another

unfulfiling

pursuit of an egoless gathering ...

To those women who deemed my story inappropriate for their yahoo! groups.

Untapped Source of Peace


Untappped source of peace,
The only real hopeIs to draw upon the collective wisdom of women.
Those with direct experience of the cost of war:
The life of child, grandchild, sibling, spouse.
The loss of limb or mind of someone near and dear,
The loss of laughter, the pervasiveness of fear,
The loss of hope for the future.
Untapped source of peace,
Those who know of domestic violence:
Seen the effect of bullying on sons,
Seen daughters become silent,
Seen light go out in their eyes.
Those who know That when every child matters
,When none are hungry, abused or discounted
The world will become a kinder place
For us all

Untapped source of peace,
Women with empathy
Who live in a world apart,
Are safe, loved, and fortunate,
Yet can imagine
Being helpless, beaten, and raped,
Then forced to bear a child
Conceived in violence.
Women who know in their hearts
That what happens to any woman
Anywhere
Could happen to them.

Untapped source of peace,
Women who see loved ones filled with vengeance and hate,
Hypervigilant, fear-ridden, or afraid to sleep
Because of the nighmares.
Husbands, brothers, sons, and now daughters
Home from wars,
Bearing little resemblance to who they could have been
In a peaceful world.
Untapped source of peace,
Women in circles,
Women connecting,
Women together
Bringing the sacred feminine,
Maternal instinct, sister archetype,
Mother power
Into the world.

From Urgent Message From Mother: Gather the Women, Save the World
published by Conari/Red Wheel, September 2005
- Dr. Jean Shinoda Bolen

I am so sorry that you didn't have the hearts to recognize mine. If were are to achieve peace, we must face the unpeaceful conditions imposed on our sisters.

Good bye.